Nur Rasyidah

Assalammualaikum ppl!

Yeaaa fosho im here to rant, cs where else can i kan? Takkan kat iium confession pulak, ppl kat luar ada lagi bigger problems and things to share, cerita aku ni takat takat masam masam kehidupan student ipts je uhuk uhuk

Idk why, maybe tengah pms kot. So the whole day i was like being reaaaaally emo and cranky, getting angry at all kinds of stuffs. Even at the slightest thing ugh ya Allah.

So, i talked w my friend tadi. She can be considered as someone im comfortable with, we always have like, luahkan-perasaan kind of talk together. Discussing bout y this, y that.

So yeah. She was talking bout a thing, and i wouldnt agree cs i thought she didnt get what i was saying. I went like multiple times before i realized she stressed out her words (she kinda sounded pissed) so i went 'ok dear self. Back off. No more'

There was an awkward silence after that. What made it moreeee awkward was that we're going to study together so the journey going to the study place was helllaaaaa awkward. Then i saw her opening the twitter.

'yea she gonna tweet sumthing bout me, i know it'

Cs she aint following and be followed by anyone here in mkic so she's like totally has the freedom to tweet bout things happening here.

so i waited for a while, then i stalked her account (she didnt know tht i knew her acc, btw its not even private) and there she went. Tweetin bout our lil argument just now.

I was kinda pissed off, really. But thinking bout things we talked together before, about how these girls here kept on arguing bout simple stuffs and how they shld handle things maturely, made me buried my temper deep enough to not show in front of her, let it stay low, low-key enuf.

I guess we both felt the awkwardness layin between us so she started the conversation before studying. I chipped in , just to make it as usual.

Okay ranting bout that, done.

Idk why it always felt like im the only one who needs to take care of others feelings.

'be careful not to disturb her sleeping'
'be careful not to sing too loud'
'no dont that she's studying'
'she'll get annoyed just keep it to yourself'

I know there're like billions of ppl feeling the same way as i am, but i just cant help but to question, why doesnt everyone else realize what im feeling?

Kay kay ill stop here. Need to do Physics assignment.